Journal 56: Big Apple

To succeed in the 21st century world, you need to have connections. The world is becoming much more global and the ones with power are the ones well connected. New York is the center of the world. Almost all things happen there, business centers, Big companies, and all sorts of global things you can imagine resides in New York.
When a person have good connections, it also mean that the opportunities that one is available also increases. Say being a artist. By being global, you can easily gain fame through numerous routes, being exposed to the public, newspapers, or even major head companies that have great interests in your work. These are all something that could be achieved easily with a global connection. If one have great skill but without connections, it will take them years to be viewed worldwide, then centuries to be well known and famous, maybe even after they have died. Which is why i want to go to New York too. With more connections, means be global, then fame comes in your way.

Journal 55: Public Interest

Honestly, i don't really get the quotation. It might be that im in a dizzy state right now when im writing this journal or simply because i really don't understand. If what i perceive is right, it means that the individual mind in colleges are getting really, "unglobal" in their interest for the world. That the society and the students that are graduating lately bases their interest off benefits rather than morale.
I'm really not sure of this quotation means, but i do find this world base more on benefits more and more instead of the basic human instinct of good. People are losing more and more of their good  morale and retreats into the protection of self benefits. the world is going in a cynical state and ones with basic human goodness are fading. Some of the people that still have these qualities are probably children. The world needs more caring and good nature human beings, if one always look into the beneficial side, then U.S will truly plunge into a dark future. The rich gets richer, the poor gets poorer.

Journal 54: Literature and Death

You can't arrest an idea, you can't destroy and idea, nor can you stop and idea. Writing literature is a way of expressing one's opinion, just as what art does. Art, music, or literature are all a form of expression. These are representation of an idea portrayed onto a physical object. It doesn't matter if the thing survived history or was it preserved well. All that matters in the end is that the idea lives on, people had seen it before and the person that created the representation remebers the idea. Once the idea is created, nothing, can stop it from spreading. Writing something is a way of recording yourself in the vast tsunami called earthquake. A person can be washed away easily, what your achievements are doesn't matter. If the future don't know about it, you will soon be forgotten. When you have written something down, people will read the thing no matter what it is. Its a recording, a piece of you that was saved down. Therefore, this is the reason why i like to read actual books. When you type something out, it loses the spiritual value of a person devoting himself to record something down individually with a character, or art. Written words are a form of art work, and it is the process of writing and recording yourself where a person could feel himself right there, at the moment, the creating his own history.

Journal 53: Reasoning and Insight

agree, totally agree. You can rigorously pursue  something, however if you never receive an insight, you will never understand. What is insight? its the ability to penetrate a situation, a clear mind, or a understanding of some thing. To me, having insight is comparable to be having a sudden realization or epiphany. Your sudden realization of the situation can alter a normal view of something completely.
This is the same for artistic endeavors instead of in math or science. When a artist is able to insight his topic or specific interest in his idea, a remarkable artwork could flow through. If an artist have lots of wonderful idea, but unable to insight these ideas artistically, then they may never actually create the work. For example Picasso's Guernica. The creation of Guernica was based on the idea of to stop war. Sure, Picasso could have just painted a gorgeous and realistic painting of the horrors of war. However, through his sudden insight of his genius and ideas, a distorted and symbolic image appears. The color, the shapes, the overlapping of figures all gave way to this ingenius artwork. With insight, Picasso was able to paint this painting in a way where people are forced to think.

Journal 52: Life of Service

I think faith could be a great part of good learning in life. When one have faith in their hearts, they could focus their mind a whole lot on a specific goal. Having faith in their God could probably also help meeting a goal or stay on track. When one gets distracted and feel tired, through talking or praying, they could feel blessed. 

Servicce and faith offers a spiritual guidance for a person's heart. 

The teachings of you religion definitely will somehow make one's ethic or moral better in some way. Well, actually it depends on the religion that you are participating in. But anyway, people would have a better understanding in life or the proper morale when one is doing a task. They will follow a specific set of rules or discipline to accomplish their goals accordingly. 

Religion and life of service probably sharpen a person's mind as well since it involves alot of meditation in almost all the religion ranging from Buddhist, Christian (which is praying adn repent), Muslim, and whatever religion there is in the world out there. 

Journal 51: The Best Laid Plans

There haven't been a major crisis or challenge in my life that i have faced yet, or i suppose i simply forgot about it. If i face a challenge, i usually push myself to the very limit to accomplish the challenge. Or i simply find a unexpected hole to the challenge and overcome it. Why would i say that? because of my the only challenges i remembered was the start of 2012 where everything was falling apart.
I was screamed by the head of the school everyday. My SAT score is shit. My social life was crumbling down and there was no female for me to hit on (this is a big thing for me). My family was disappointed in me and i was pushed to madness. Nothing went according to plan and i basically had everything in ruins.
I didn't try to fix each thing one by one, i found a hole where i rested my mind. That was the time where i started to make friends outside of school and found myself a artist community. After that was established and seeing all the approved voices from people across the continent, i had my confidence once again. Everything went back on track where my friends came and apologized and my SAT was rising back up after my confidence was regained.

Journal 50: My World

I come from a quite asian world that focuses on academic. My mom and dad might not be so pushy about my grades as some other would, they are still pretty aggressive. My family raise me to be independent. requiring me to achieve every task by myself without the help of anyone. Through time, this shaped my current personality of self independence and rebellious. I move constantly from place to place therefore i adapted the american view and the asian society. I mixed in together and adopted my culture identity as asian but my world view americanized. Or should i say, old americans where nowadays the americans are fat and stupid such as their government. Fucking stupid senate banning the internet and call themself democracy. What the FUCK? Then, attacking the Islamic countries and brainwashing the military with ideas that muslims are bad. Again? the fucking hell? therefore i've decided to adopt my identity as asain. Americans are moving downhill fast into a corrupted country. I put myself in a artistic community that I love. Infact, i created my own community where i bought people from across the globe altoghter.

Journal 49: What I Am Proud Of

I am proud of, my enthusiasm for new things and adventurous qualities. One of my favorite thing and what i can find myself fascinate with is exploring. I don't like to be stuck on one approach or one lifestyle. I love new things and new experiments. By trying out new things, i feel myself discovering a brand new aspect of the world. I find myself exploring a new realm and i really want to see the world. Travel to the native lands, grab a backpack and go is one of dreams.
When i meant i want to travel the world, i meant it. If you gave a a load of cash my first choice of action would be grabbing a ticket and fly to one of my favorite and most curious place, Rome, then walk the whole Europe. My adventurous quality is what pushes me to be outgoing. I'm never scared of strangers, i can strike a conversation or walk up to a group of strangers and try to be absorbed. From time to time, i would stick to a specific thing im interested and get connected with all the people around the world that is interested in it as well. For example, art. I have created my own community of artists and help artists from cross continent to know each other and make collaboration projects.

Journal 45: About Myself

I'm a super social person, i believe my application does not talk about it. I am absolutely unafraid of people in the street or talking to stranger. I could strike a conversation with anyone in the streets.Another thing i love is getting connected to people. I add thousands of people on facebook and talk with hundreds of people. One of my recent hobbies is sharing artworks with people across the globe on facebook. Looking at all those people that became as astonished at the artworks i posted as i did when i first saw them is absolutely joyful. Making friends with the internet gets me connected with people across the globe to places that i will probably not visit in a million years. I became international community members of undergroundd art society or famous artists as i chat with them. 

Being social is probably the thing i'm best at. I always look for oppurtunites to meet new people and get connected to different cultures or art form that i do not experience. 

Journal 46: Art and Life

i don't know if it will help me in my life and i dont know if art school will help me prepare my caraer. I am simple going there because my heart tells me to. I love the arts, and i never realize that until last year. I didn't thought of pursuing the arts probably because my mom was just too good. Drawing beside her gives me a aura of pressure to paint and draw as good as her.
I figured that's why i didn't pursue the arts. I'm grateful of the fact that i came to PAS. Despite all the trash and terrible atrocities that are raging in the school, the arts program and studio in PAS is quite fantastic. Dennis and Jones encouraged me to pursue the arts and continue on with my interest.
I like to spray things and make stencils. Drawing is also one of my specialties. Despite the fact that i really want to paint, i also fear i might screw up one of my works. Spraying a artwork is something that my mom never did tried and is unfmailiar with it. I suppose that is the reason why i decided to use spray to make my point in society. Its something my mom don't know about so i don't have  pressure and the revolutionary quality and rebellious representation is what i want. This particular form suits my need in conceptly and personal interest wise.
I'am definitely not sure where art will lead me in the future, but i believe in living a life of joy and that is what art can provide me with. Money comes later in my list of important things.

Journal 47: More Art

Banksy
Ai Wei Wei
these are just two of the choices i have
Ai Wei Wei's human representation through gestures at Tian An Men is one of the artwork that have influenced me greatly. His simple representation and straightout opposition is what i strife for in my art works. I strife to be a revolutionary artist that is unafraid to attack cherished beliefs or authorities that are above and higher than me. I want to make a point with art and not just some pretty picture to hang in the house. Ai Wei Wei's art forms shocked the government authorities in the world and his art forms are simple and quick representaitons of his revoltutionary ideas.

As for Banksy, his art form are even simpler with words and simple illustrations sprayed across the globe. peace and government opposition or orthodox beliefs is what he always attack. His graffiti representations are exactly what i admire. With his artworks sprayed instead of painted, it reiniforces the rebellious idea and concept behind his stencils. Such as the work have a nice day or the man throwing a flower. Its a simple stencil but the idea behind it could promote peace simple and easy with its special materials.

Journal 48: Busy busy busy

Everything can be viewed as a plaeasurable or beneficial experience. It doesn't matter if it is running a errand, having a meeting, suffering, being shot, or suffering a heart breaking broke up. 

My life is very pleasant despite the fact that i was moving from place to place and was bullied for a while in U.S until i couldn't take it anymore and broke someone's nose. 

I lived with pleasure in every aspect of life, why? i want to lead a happy life and keep my hair. When i move from place to place, i keep a optimistic thought thinking can meet new girls and new interesting people. When i get bullied, i take pleasure in the thought i can beat the crap out of them one day. When i'm studying, i take pleasure in thinking how awesome it would be if i got an A and get to party once im done with it. 

Pleasure lives in everything and every activity. The only difference in how a person can feel pleasure depends on the thought of perceiving the activity. 

Journal 44: Past Experiences

yeah, art, but not decided on which specific art major yet. Art schools believe that we are all little brats that know nothin about art and don't want us to have a major. I actually like that, i could experience and test around different things until i decided my actual major. This is good, really good. What really impacted me on deciding to art major is probably street art. Why? because at first, i just like art but i really wasn't sure if i wanna do it for a actual job and major.
However, after i go all out with art and started to travel around taipei for knowing local artists, i picked up a spray can and started doing my own stencils. Dam i love that feeling of spraying and creating stencil. I felt endless ideas and possibilities popping up in my mind and all i wanted to do is just cut and draw and spray. After i was praise for some of my work last year, that was the catalyst that pushed me to become a artist. I started traveling aroudn Taipei and being involved in all the art program or exhibit. Exploring each of the style of different people and adapting in.
Nothing else really sucked me in since for my past time i enjoy art the most. It's not something i would say, blah, im tired and i wanna take a rest.

Journal 43: Intellectual Vitality

well, my extracurricular activity Tai Ji Men is quite important to me. then the other thing is freedom and cleansiness. I might not look clean as you see my hair, but i clean my room everyday and my bag and stuff is all arranged and tidy. I hate having bugs or have some wierd smell coming up in my room. I want everything to smell nice. Once thing i absolutely cannot take is to have something smell like shit. Either it is your armpit smell, your feet smell or whatever. If i discover something i find that does not smell good, i will eliminate it and make it smell nice.
If anyone will be my future roomate, i want someone that can chat with me on i don't know, very personal stuffs. Like one who i shall not name, he would have been the perfect roommate. We have the same music taste, the same jokes and the same hobby that we could screw around and wouldn't be piss off at each other. We talk about porn and girls all the time and share explicit stuff. We share informations on different girls, we have the same taste in finding someone hot but different taste on who would be a good girlfriend. We like to eat similar things. Dang, thinking about it now, i wish i can meet a future roommate that share all these characteristics.
Basically, to live with me, you need to be acustom to my music taste and the no boundary kind of way.

Journal 42: School and Major

i pick CCA, that is like my decided school where everything i need is located there. San Francisco, not too hot, not too cold. I have the beach on one side and the icy mountains for snowboarding on another side. The wide variety of major and technology offered int he school allows me to explore all my different possibilities and interest. I love experimentation, trying out a variety of different things excites me and makes me excited. The only thing i kind of dislike about the place is that there are too many asians in the area. I want to go to some place completely new and full of people other than asians. This gives me a wide variety of friends and adventure to know new people and try out new friends and experience their culture.
Besides that, probably nothin else is bad about it. THe location, the majors offered, the city is nice, the people interesting, and the environment is fantastic for all the things i enjoy. Surfing and snowboarding and all my old friends are located in Cali. 2 hour drive and im back home in L.A. Other direction 2 hour im up in mammoth lake for some good snow and enjoyment.

Journal 39: Lucky You

i will travel the world, but without having all the money to live int he top places. Im just using some money to take care of myself in food. Having all that money and travel the world will really miss out on the experience in adventure. I like adventure, and the thing with traveling around the world is the sense of unknown and experience is what excites me the most. Living in top notch hotel and resorts whle traveling around the world is just luxury enjoyment instead of living the adventure yourself.
I will save money and put it into investments. Maybe get a few house around the world for my parents to live in and let them enjoy the rest of their lives. Put in some donations, redecorate my house, but some art works and become a investor in the art field. Like a patron in the art field, since that's what i love the most.
I'll probably start traveling when im done with college and university. Look all around the world and feel everything. Meet people and understand the culture of everyone. Explore the amazons and travel through Africa. Travel to all the places that i have read in books and all sorts.

Journal 41: Leaders in the Making

interestting journal, i suppose i dont know any idea ho how to advise someone. I think i will pick jason from the recent book im reading. Jason advising jasons. SO he recently just lost his memory, so i will probably first assure him that im his advisor. Lead him to the camp half blood that im suppose to take him and teach him the wyas of the half blood. Most likely im just like chiron now advising and teaching hom how to survive in the world of gods and monsters.
THen i will have to start and lead him on a quest. A prophecy quest where he will on the trip to obtain something or i dont know. I will stay back and kick back with wine in my hand and hope that he will succeed. That's about it.
if i were to choose another chracter to supervise and advise, i would like to choose hitler. I find it pretty interesting or i could change the lives of people if i can advise him. Imagine the amount of people i could save if i can avoid him of getting him so fucked up and killing everyone. Then, kill the crazy minded guy Hitler in the end.

Journal 40: Spring Break

I had a pretty awesome break i suppose besides the fact that i didn't really had any time to go study for SAT. The other thing that pulled the whole experience down was the fact that i shouted by my mom for how low my math scores was where they haven't saw the latest score.
I hanged out with my friends for monday and tuesday, wendsday i stayed home and relaxed the whole time and painted when my teacher was done with class.
Thursday was a trip of excellent gourmet in sain shiya and kind of a crappy weather that soaked my shoe up and ruined the trip for me in the end. The food was absolutely amazing, the restaurant that my aunt took me to was mindblowing as well. The amount of people and the popularity was crazy. It was freaking a normal week day where everyone had class and work and the restaurant was packed by the time we left, which is 12:30.
It's not a average restaurant, this is a high class place that not everyone could get into.
After that, i had the best rice cake EVER in my life, it was so soft and tightly packed that it is chewy and doesn't stick on my teeth.
As for friday and Saturday, i was at the wildest party ever, the Avicii concert.
Hot girls everywhere, drinking and the music was absolutely amazing. There was just too many crazy shit going on there that would take up 1000 words to complete this whole journal, that was like, THE night of my life.
then i went home and got shouted for the old SAT score which i was fcking pissed about and they didnt even know im staying after school from 3 all the way to 10 in the night and working my butt off studying and preparing portfolio. god dam parents, shouting kids at things that they are not even sure themselves.

Journal 38: Opportunity Cost

Right now, im sacrificing my lunch and afterschool social time to artworks. I wanted to finish my profolio before CCA comes and i want to have a solid profolio that they are WILL give me my admission ticket and my scholarships. i have been working from 3 to 7 everyday in school. Besides that, i scarfiiced my swimming practices on friday and monday so i can spent extra time on SAT practices. I couldn't maintain the schedule of SAT practices required in a week, i feel overwhelmed. I have to spent a extra tuesday in school looking over it and a Monday for my tutor.
Right now, im usually home skyping with some other people when im doing homework. Skyping with girls is a sacrifice of me finishing my homework a little faster without it. I could probably finish my daily dose of homework half an hour earlier if it wasn't for fbing and chatting.

Journal 56: Power

The narrator had to wear blood red dresses to show their status in life. THey care called the handmaids, limited life area and secluded from other people. They are basically sex slave guarded by angels outside of the gym that the narrator is living. Besides that, The one person among the maids that have power is probably the aunt. It seems like the aunt would regulate the handmaid's works. They are probably the lowest social class in the book from the amount of information that i have now. They can't be trusted with guns and are constantly watched.
Their time of staying outside is being timed and watched all the time, which is pretty dam sad.
I feel as if i have pretty much control on what iw ant to do. I live outside alone, as long as i maintain my grades, i can do almost anything. Well, i don't drink i don't smoke and i certainly don't go clubbing, anything besides that, i can do.
I can decide what i want to eat everyday, when to start my work. I can decied when to sleep, what art i like to create. I can decide what kind of friend i want to have and when i want to go home. I get control over my sister so yeah, I'm living pretty dam well good.

Journal 37: Test Prep Effect on Writing

Hell yeah, im noticing this problem when im writing my essay nowadays. I feel like my sense of free writing and creativeness is being quite limited where the only thing i wanted to do was stuff facts inside my paper. You know how when your write a SAT writing section essay, you have to kind of twist your examples and make a essay to fit in together with your example? That process of twisting involves the creative thinking process. Why is this process important? Because when i do this SAT essay alot, my mind will automatically shift my original creative writing to a essay for the SAT. I will start to have problem to figure out what is it that i want to write about and i have to pay double attention to be able to fend off the urge of fitting everything together.
The facts will become tied up along with my thoughts and the essay will become something what i like to call shit. It misses the originality of a writer or the SAT process shitty essay and in front of the writer is a byproduct forged by these two thinking process.
A combination ended up being something worst then either one of them. Nowadays, i find myself trying really hard to stop putting facts into my essay and think creatively. It takes me twice the time to think about an essay and jot down my ideas on paper. My mind maps are limited to my past where endless possibilities was available.
I hate this SAT and test taking works, im being cornered and my mind is being strongly affected.

Journal 36: Cheating

I value the progress more than the conclusion. Although  the conclusion is much more respected and valued for people, i feel that the progress is what provides people with experience. A person grows with the increased amount of experience tat they acquired through life.
I don;t like cheating, but in a society where conclusion is better than progress, people are forced to cheat in life. For the China situation, i think its a perception of life that they have because of a recent event. For example, the Cultural revolution forced them for their will to succeed. They had to do it or they will suffer in the later lives.
When forced, people had to do things against their will. About the Guanxi relationship, we Taiwanese people just know that everything in CHina is fake and we are tired to stop this mass producing of fake stuff. Its impossible for us to stop something liek this. We would habe to just let it go.

Journal 34: Race to College

That, is a rather hard question to tackle because of the extreme wealth difference between the people i the United States.
Here we have a group of maybe blacks that worked their butts of to college with not enough money while a group of rich white kids that have the same grades and the blacks. How do we pick which student we want then? the ones with the money. I think a system need to be created where if you work from a lower class to the same level of education and intelectual level as the people in a higher class do, you can come in with financial help or something.
People then will get pissed off and demand how the poor can have treatment like this while they're rich and they don't something to benefit them. I'm more than positive that some selfish people on the face of the planet will despise the poor and question the government for the same kind of treatment.
I think this is a matter of the thoughts and ideas of regular people. If you ask me, i believe this racial problem is something that takes time to cure, its not just about racial anymore, the racial problem is mixing in with strong poverty difference and the problem of child birth rates. the rich are giving birth to less children while the poor are having more children. the minds of people need to be changed until a actual revolution can happen.

Journal 33: My Activity

my activity is Tai Ji Men which I have being participating for the last 7 years. From when i was back in the U.S, i continued my apprenticeship for 3 years until i was officially accepted under my master. It might sound kind of gay with all these words im using now, but these are the actual words that i use if i was suppose to use english to address him and what i do. So yeah, im not playing around.
I pracetice martial arts and ways of helping the body with Tai Chi every Saturday and Sunday. It was a non stop activity from morning to night, and we would stay at the place ( i need to find a name for it) for the whole night to chat and communicate our inner feelings. Such as any insights, self meditation and all that. Its really relaxing to talk it all out and perform in front of people. It's kind of like public speaking, but we uses this method to speak out what's really on your mind and what your thoughts are on the world.
We promote world peace, every time there's a event around the towns we would gather up for a performance, its a prcatice (i still don't remember the specific name, gotta search it up) We perform drums, dancing tigers and dragons and lots of other activity.
Our organization also travel all around the world to promote world peace, to end all wars and help children by free charity work. Every october 10, the national taiwan holiday, we will have a own specific show. With hundreds of people that have been practicing for months for that show. We do it for fun, for showmanship, for displaying ourself and learning public appearance, and while during the whole process, self discovery.

Journal 31: How to Impress

to be honest, i could basically make up all sorts of specific events that teaches me all of the qualities that the officers are looking for. However, there is this one specific activity, Tai Ji Men that i do specifically fulfills each and every aspects of the quality that its looking for. Its like a humongous boy scout, well, at least it teaches all the morals of boy scout but when you look at all the things and the deeper meanings of things we do, its totally different.
We have to meditate, think about things that just really grand, we're always optimistic and stuff. We perform and call to world peace. We have interactions among the UN and the martial arts community. I had to practice almost all aspects of a good human behavior and a search of human insights.
its really nice to go, espacially how the atomsphere over there is really relaxing and everyone is so nice to me and positive.
Thi cho gong i learn over there helps my body as well, it promotes blood circulation, better health, cure many problems for people having back problem or health problems.
it encourage people to think and to act, it makes the people inside much more independent and all that.

Journal 32: Free Write

ok, i love this journal like, superb cause the most amazing thing happened to me yesterday at night. Im pretty sure i wasnt on drugs or getting high or any of that shit. i had the best and i swear to god the best the most realistic dreams i have ever had before.
So it started out with me going out of my room and saw that the front door was open. I went inside Robert's room and asked him why didn't you close the door? and Richard was like (cause today richard just happen to sleep over at the same time and his in the dream too!?) don't you know? the news said there's going to be a heat wave at midnight or sth. I was like seriously!? so should i open my window for my room to get warm or something? there were like yeah!!
so then i went to open the window and then BAM
and dont remember anything else other than that.
then goes on to the really good dream
the memory starts where i was holding a really like, kind of shy, hot, but not the latino kind of hot with all that curves and everything. She's blonde, hair to the shoulder, cute, body with curves, figure a B almost a C.
we were hiding in the closet of a family party of i dont know who. Shy, i was the leading idea and taking her out guy and we went kissing. After that is all kinds of places that we went to together and hugging and just like a couple. Dam, she was so hot and so heartwarming i have no idea where i met such a girl.
the thing is, i've never met this girl before, not even on the streets or the movie before if i did, i would've remember her face and body for a long time.
then i was taking a nap and she woke me up
then i woke up, Robert told me im about to be late, its 7:40 and i had to dash out without breakfast. Dam i wish i could just sleep and live my life with her.
she was incrediblely sweet and sensible of my needs. She's perfect. like, the perfect girlk i would want to meet and marry. I don't know if god gave me this dream to go look for this girl? i don't know, i just thought to be romantic to go search up for this girl but also really tiring if i never get to find her, but i wish, i do find this girl
its so strange, the dream was so incredibly true. I could picture myself and feeling her kiss, our body hugged in the closet and her face just so clearly and real. I've never had dreams as true as this one at all. It was just like, really true and real when i kill zombie but i dont actually feel the touch and stuff. i could sense fear and sweat, but not the realistic and love touching of a dam kiss!!
god that was a good dream, i just wish i never have to wake up.

Journal 30: Extra Curricular Activities

I think i did quite alot of stuff in the past, i guess :
Tai Ji Men for 8 years
performance for 4 years
Energy Dance
practiced chinese drums and formations for a, i don't know how to explain it, just know that i performed at the front of the taipei government building on 10 10

taekwando for 4 years
i went to camps every summer
participated in numerous college level classes along with adults in critical thinking classes such as in Cal Poly

Swimming since i was freaking kindergarden
participated in 3 years of competition every February and September

community service at the local library for fun and meeting new people

camps such as adtrology camp when i was 7th grade or sth, 8th grade i went to a camp for kids that are not so wealthy. Made alot of friends and saw alot of new things in life.

i joined a community service camp before, it was quite short
martial arts, 8 years as well
drawing classes and stuff
japanese sword, 劍道i dont know the english name

musical for two years, end of the year performances in school, dont know if that ocunts
i did a bit of music and beats
photography
not sure if there's anything else, AH!
i had a shakepeare contest and got first place



So in the end, the things i will write about is Tai Ji Men (which is like a mix of martial arts and meditation)
Swimming
Taekwando
yeah, thatas abut it

Journal 29: Valentines

what does love mean? this is a hard and long thinking question. i have so much to say about love, strange, i suddenly don't know where to start. i'm expierencing quite alot lately with this love thing. Love is a bittersweet thing, when both sides work out, its sweet, but when one side didn't work out, everything falls apart. Doesn't just mean in romance, it means in bromance, sistermance, family love, or basically any love. If one gives out their heart for the other one, and they have nothing in return, it becomes extremely bittersweet. I believe, love between two people could be identify as your willingness to sacrifice yourself for the other one. It doesn't mean you have to sacrifice all to have love, you can have love, but to determine how much you love him or her depends on the amount of sacrifice you're willing to give out.
I sacrificed my time, energy, money, and all of my heart for a girl, but in return was nothing.
love is a strange thing, when you devout yourself to that one person, a simple smile or glance could start your mind with all kinds of guess and signals. I don't know how to explain all my thoughts in words over here. I've thought too much stuff about this love and expression over the past few years and i find love have a deep connection in trust. Trusting others and devouting your whole in trusting another.
If you love someone, that means you're willing to give up everything you have for her, and they are willing to give up everyhting they have for you as well. love is a two way thing. If both are willing to sacrifice evenly, then we have love. The ones that i believe are truly beautiful, because neither side are giving too much and feeling unreturned. blah, i don't know how to express this in plain words

Journal 28: Sources?

My issue have only one source, and that’s the powerpoint about the artist Ai Wei Wei by a Taiwanese artist that did a presentation during his Ai Wei Wei’s exhibit. All the information I need is in the powerpoint that I got down. Starting from the history of China, the censorship, and the other actions that the government did. It got everything I need, the only extra thing I might have to research about the relationship with Taiwan and China.

I have the main censorship down, but that’s more of a personal issue rather than in the international sense. In the international sense, I need to search up extra specific events where there’s bad habits of Chinese exposed or abuses. I have Japanese abusing Taiwanese with the lately news of Makiyo, but no Chinese news of Taiwan really significant. I think I might have to search up old news to find a report like this. There’s other views of the China and Taiwan situation on the level of preserving the history of a country is one of them. However, I’m not sure if I will include that inside my essay since it might lead my main point of censorship to something else. I could either stay with censorship or focus on the part of relationship between the two country.

Journal 27: Personal, But Not Selfish

i don't think my topic have the problem that the other people have. My issue consists of multiple levels. My personal concerns are the issues in censorship and the right of freedom of speech. In a extent to that, it talks about national issues where the unification of China and Taiwan worries me and the people. Why? because China might put restrictions on the internet service and much more things once their in charge. If that happens there would be a violation of the freedom of speech that we, the citizens of Taiwan use to have. Then, as an artist, or hope to be an artist for my career, make art works against this idea. My art works are responses to the censorship and oppressing government and can express freely of what i want to say.
My topic talks about the personal aspect first, then to the national aspect, concerns for other, and last the personal aspect and future. I believe my issue does not talk about myself too much since its more of a connection again and again linking everything together. So in one essay, i talked not just personal issue or just local issue, instead, i have a combination of numerous things.
I'm still quite thinking of what personal anecdote i should include. I actually started this idea when i felt pushed and treated the school. It started with the shouting and the wave of dislike of the seniors. That's when i felt that the school is going down a spiral. Then, i got locked out, that was the thing that marked the end of silence. I decided i was not going to be pushed around like an idiot anymore. Now, My ideas and works revolves around the idea of rising up and fighting for yourself. Speak up and raise your voice, then you will be noticed.I guess for the personal anecdote, i might well just include my idea behind my artwork. However, i think i might even write two copies. One for Pamela for the concealing of my rebellious idea and another one where i express it completely so the admissions know what my real idea is and how worldly or innovative i am, things like that.

Journal 26: The Worst

strictly speaking, there was no bad part in my winter vacation besides losing my original sharp necklace. However, i did get a new one with my own allowance that i saved throughout the year. The new necklace's price was a bitch man.
so back to losing my necklace, i lost it when i was in Japan. Why? because somehow i was dumb enough to not put it in the very end of my jacket. I had it kind of haning out in the second layer of my shirt and jackets. I was doing a big leap off a ramp and i fell miserably in the end. I twisted my neck and my back by doing that jumo and i was feeling terrible. I landed in soft snow, first its hard to get up. Second, my friends and teacher left already, i was eager to catch up. So, i hurried up and slided out without checking if i have lost anything. It was when i was back at the rest stop that i realized that my nacklace was gone. At first  i thought i might have just left it in the hotel. However, after going back to the hotel i realized i actually lost it in the snow. I was feeling pretty shitty when i realized i lost my favorite necklace/lucky charm in the snow in Japan. I was so mad at myself i was banging my head to the tree. Dam, that necklace was with me for about 5 years now, and i lost it on a ski trip in the snow of japan. But, i guess im pretty relieved that i lost it in the snow rather than on the road or something. It like the snow, and i've been dipping it in the snow every year i go to Japan or go skiing. Guess the necklace belonged to where it's suppose to be. The necklace of snow. The blade of snow.

Journal 25: Christmas Holiday

My chirstmas is dam fun. im going to talk about both option since it both has something to my holiday and what i think.
Christmas is sooooo commercialized right now that people don't even freaking remember the original purpose of Christmas. Christmas is about Jesus and now Santa Claus at first, or that's what i remembered. Anyway, Christmas is like a big celebration for everywhere and everyone since 1, kids get presents 2, we get to go out and have fun and this all leads to 3, the businesses having money. See, the people are happy with their gifts and chrismas celebration while the market and sellers get their money as their christmas gifts.
What's more, santa claus was made as a fantastic story for kids to believe in. They love it, we love it, and slowly it become the main character that lives in people's hearts when December comes. Santa Claus is like the new idol of kids since he gets presents for them.

My christmas was fantastic. I was in Japan enjoying the snow and a japanese Santa Claus. The trip was a complete bless to my soul and mind for a rest from the whole school and SAT crap.  God, it was like a charger that completely gave me a new life. Now im back to school again with the energy that i can use all the way till new year break. Once new year break come, the little energy lost through the 1 month will be replenish again and i will become over charged for the upcoming summer.
All these gifts i got from christmas, well not anymore, but the decorations are all money for the business owners.

Journal 23: Address an Issue

i find this a extremely difficult journal to talk about. Why? because from starting to brainstorm about this topic have caused me enough trouble to figure out what is it that im gonna talk about.
The one thing that i find is of the most importance now is the freedom of speech. China is limiting the people's rights of freedom of expression. It has caused a great deal of opposition and pretty much dislike and kind of a disapproval between countries that they find pretty oppressing.
Democracy is the new trend of this century and it is something that most people would appreciate if they can have it. If such is the case where your freedom is limited, then you will have much disapproval among the people.
What is my issue in the local? i wouldn't even call it local. Its something that is near my community that i face right now. Which is also the freedom of speech. I find myself being watched even outside of my community. I'm watched, and i have to watch what i say all the time now. Im being watched probably right now because of a recent event.
That's pretty much the local issue i find interesting and annoying. Global issue that i am concern of is also the freedom of speech. People have the right to do what they want, if the law is to limit their basic rights such as expressing ideas, then that's just wrong. You can say something bad about them too, but not just resricting it to something you can't do. The 21st century idea is democracy and that we can express our voting rights and all idea freely. Our minds are free, but now is not the case around the world. Lots of places are not free and much is restricted.
Thats what im basically going to talk about.