Journal 54: Literature and Death

You can't arrest an idea, you can't destroy and idea, nor can you stop and idea. Writing literature is a way of expressing one's opinion, just as what art does. Art, music, or literature are all a form of expression. These are representation of an idea portrayed onto a physical object. It doesn't matter if the thing survived history or was it preserved well. All that matters in the end is that the idea lives on, people had seen it before and the person that created the representation remebers the idea. Once the idea is created, nothing, can stop it from spreading. Writing something is a way of recording yourself in the vast tsunami called earthquake. A person can be washed away easily, what your achievements are doesn't matter. If the future don't know about it, you will soon be forgotten. When you have written something down, people will read the thing no matter what it is. Its a recording, a piece of you that was saved down. Therefore, this is the reason why i like to read actual books. When you type something out, it loses the spiritual value of a person devoting himself to record something down individually with a character, or art. Written words are a form of art work, and it is the process of writing and recording yourself where a person could feel himself right there, at the moment, the creating his own history.

Journal 53: Reasoning and Insight

agree, totally agree. You can rigorously pursue  something, however if you never receive an insight, you will never understand. What is insight? its the ability to penetrate a situation, a clear mind, or a understanding of some thing. To me, having insight is comparable to be having a sudden realization or epiphany. Your sudden realization of the situation can alter a normal view of something completely.
This is the same for artistic endeavors instead of in math or science. When a artist is able to insight his topic or specific interest in his idea, a remarkable artwork could flow through. If an artist have lots of wonderful idea, but unable to insight these ideas artistically, then they may never actually create the work. For example Picasso's Guernica. The creation of Guernica was based on the idea of to stop war. Sure, Picasso could have just painted a gorgeous and realistic painting of the horrors of war. However, through his sudden insight of his genius and ideas, a distorted and symbolic image appears. The color, the shapes, the overlapping of figures all gave way to this ingenius artwork. With insight, Picasso was able to paint this painting in a way where people are forced to think.

Journal 52: Life of Service

I think faith could be a great part of good learning in life. When one have faith in their hearts, they could focus their mind a whole lot on a specific goal. Having faith in their God could probably also help meeting a goal or stay on track. When one gets distracted and feel tired, through talking or praying, they could feel blessed. 

Servicce and faith offers a spiritual guidance for a person's heart. 

The teachings of you religion definitely will somehow make one's ethic or moral better in some way. Well, actually it depends on the religion that you are participating in. But anyway, people would have a better understanding in life or the proper morale when one is doing a task. They will follow a specific set of rules or discipline to accomplish their goals accordingly. 

Religion and life of service probably sharpen a person's mind as well since it involves alot of meditation in almost all the religion ranging from Buddhist, Christian (which is praying adn repent), Muslim, and whatever religion there is in the world out there. 

Journal 51: The Best Laid Plans

There haven't been a major crisis or challenge in my life that i have faced yet, or i suppose i simply forgot about it. If i face a challenge, i usually push myself to the very limit to accomplish the challenge. Or i simply find a unexpected hole to the challenge and overcome it. Why would i say that? because of my the only challenges i remembered was the start of 2012 where everything was falling apart.
I was screamed by the head of the school everyday. My SAT score is shit. My social life was crumbling down and there was no female for me to hit on (this is a big thing for me). My family was disappointed in me and i was pushed to madness. Nothing went according to plan and i basically had everything in ruins.
I didn't try to fix each thing one by one, i found a hole where i rested my mind. That was the time where i started to make friends outside of school and found myself a artist community. After that was established and seeing all the approved voices from people across the continent, i had my confidence once again. Everything went back on track where my friends came and apologized and my SAT was rising back up after my confidence was regained.

Journal 50: My World

I come from a quite asian world that focuses on academic. My mom and dad might not be so pushy about my grades as some other would, they are still pretty aggressive. My family raise me to be independent. requiring me to achieve every task by myself without the help of anyone. Through time, this shaped my current personality of self independence and rebellious. I move constantly from place to place therefore i adapted the american view and the asian society. I mixed in together and adopted my culture identity as asian but my world view americanized. Or should i say, old americans where nowadays the americans are fat and stupid such as their government. Fucking stupid senate banning the internet and call themself democracy. What the FUCK? Then, attacking the Islamic countries and brainwashing the military with ideas that muslims are bad. Again? the fucking hell? therefore i've decided to adopt my identity as asain. Americans are moving downhill fast into a corrupted country. I put myself in a artistic community that I love. Infact, i created my own community where i bought people from across the globe altoghter.

Journal 49: What I Am Proud Of

I am proud of, my enthusiasm for new things and adventurous qualities. One of my favorite thing and what i can find myself fascinate with is exploring. I don't like to be stuck on one approach or one lifestyle. I love new things and new experiments. By trying out new things, i feel myself discovering a brand new aspect of the world. I find myself exploring a new realm and i really want to see the world. Travel to the native lands, grab a backpack and go is one of dreams.
When i meant i want to travel the world, i meant it. If you gave a a load of cash my first choice of action would be grabbing a ticket and fly to one of my favorite and most curious place, Rome, then walk the whole Europe. My adventurous quality is what pushes me to be outgoing. I'm never scared of strangers, i can strike a conversation or walk up to a group of strangers and try to be absorbed. From time to time, i would stick to a specific thing im interested and get connected with all the people around the world that is interested in it as well. For example, art. I have created my own community of artists and help artists from cross continent to know each other and make collaboration projects.

Journal 45: About Myself

I'm a super social person, i believe my application does not talk about it. I am absolutely unafraid of people in the street or talking to stranger. I could strike a conversation with anyone in the streets.Another thing i love is getting connected to people. I add thousands of people on facebook and talk with hundreds of people. One of my recent hobbies is sharing artworks with people across the globe on facebook. Looking at all those people that became as astonished at the artworks i posted as i did when i first saw them is absolutely joyful. Making friends with the internet gets me connected with people across the globe to places that i will probably not visit in a million years. I became international community members of undergroundd art society or famous artists as i chat with them. 

Being social is probably the thing i'm best at. I always look for oppurtunites to meet new people and get connected to different cultures or art form that i do not experience. 

Journal 46: Art and Life

i don't know if it will help me in my life and i dont know if art school will help me prepare my caraer. I am simple going there because my heart tells me to. I love the arts, and i never realize that until last year. I didn't thought of pursuing the arts probably because my mom was just too good. Drawing beside her gives me a aura of pressure to paint and draw as good as her.
I figured that's why i didn't pursue the arts. I'm grateful of the fact that i came to PAS. Despite all the trash and terrible atrocities that are raging in the school, the arts program and studio in PAS is quite fantastic. Dennis and Jones encouraged me to pursue the arts and continue on with my interest.
I like to spray things and make stencils. Drawing is also one of my specialties. Despite the fact that i really want to paint, i also fear i might screw up one of my works. Spraying a artwork is something that my mom never did tried and is unfmailiar with it. I suppose that is the reason why i decided to use spray to make my point in society. Its something my mom don't know about so i don't have  pressure and the revolutionary quality and rebellious representation is what i want. This particular form suits my need in conceptly and personal interest wise.
I'am definitely not sure where art will lead me in the future, but i believe in living a life of joy and that is what art can provide me with. Money comes later in my list of important things.

Journal 47: More Art

Banksy
Ai Wei Wei
these are just two of the choices i have
Ai Wei Wei's human representation through gestures at Tian An Men is one of the artwork that have influenced me greatly. His simple representation and straightout opposition is what i strife for in my art works. I strife to be a revolutionary artist that is unafraid to attack cherished beliefs or authorities that are above and higher than me. I want to make a point with art and not just some pretty picture to hang in the house. Ai Wei Wei's art forms shocked the government authorities in the world and his art forms are simple and quick representaitons of his revoltutionary ideas.

As for Banksy, his art form are even simpler with words and simple illustrations sprayed across the globe. peace and government opposition or orthodox beliefs is what he always attack. His graffiti representations are exactly what i admire. With his artworks sprayed instead of painted, it reiniforces the rebellious idea and concept behind his stencils. Such as the work have a nice day or the man throwing a flower. Its a simple stencil but the idea behind it could promote peace simple and easy with its special materials.

Journal 48: Busy busy busy

Everything can be viewed as a plaeasurable or beneficial experience. It doesn't matter if it is running a errand, having a meeting, suffering, being shot, or suffering a heart breaking broke up. 

My life is very pleasant despite the fact that i was moving from place to place and was bullied for a while in U.S until i couldn't take it anymore and broke someone's nose. 

I lived with pleasure in every aspect of life, why? i want to lead a happy life and keep my hair. When i move from place to place, i keep a optimistic thought thinking can meet new girls and new interesting people. When i get bullied, i take pleasure in the thought i can beat the crap out of them one day. When i'm studying, i take pleasure in thinking how awesome it would be if i got an A and get to party once im done with it. 

Pleasure lives in everything and every activity. The only difference in how a person can feel pleasure depends on the thought of perceiving the activity.