Journal 38: Opportunity Cost

Right now, im sacrificing my lunch and afterschool social time to artworks. I wanted to finish my profolio before CCA comes and i want to have a solid profolio that they are WILL give me my admission ticket and my scholarships. i have been working from 3 to 7 everyday in school. Besides that, i scarfiiced my swimming practices on friday and monday so i can spent extra time on SAT practices. I couldn't maintain the schedule of SAT practices required in a week, i feel overwhelmed. I have to spent a extra tuesday in school looking over it and a Monday for my tutor.
Right now, im usually home skyping with some other people when im doing homework. Skyping with girls is a sacrifice of me finishing my homework a little faster without it. I could probably finish my daily dose of homework half an hour earlier if it wasn't for fbing and chatting.

Journal 56: Power

The narrator had to wear blood red dresses to show their status in life. THey care called the handmaids, limited life area and secluded from other people. They are basically sex slave guarded by angels outside of the gym that the narrator is living. Besides that, The one person among the maids that have power is probably the aunt. It seems like the aunt would regulate the handmaid's works. They are probably the lowest social class in the book from the amount of information that i have now. They can't be trusted with guns and are constantly watched.
Their time of staying outside is being timed and watched all the time, which is pretty dam sad.
I feel as if i have pretty much control on what iw ant to do. I live outside alone, as long as i maintain my grades, i can do almost anything. Well, i don't drink i don't smoke and i certainly don't go clubbing, anything besides that, i can do.
I can decide what i want to eat everyday, when to start my work. I can decied when to sleep, what art i like to create. I can decide what kind of friend i want to have and when i want to go home. I get control over my sister so yeah, I'm living pretty dam well good.

Journal 37: Test Prep Effect on Writing

Hell yeah, im noticing this problem when im writing my essay nowadays. I feel like my sense of free writing and creativeness is being quite limited where the only thing i wanted to do was stuff facts inside my paper. You know how when your write a SAT writing section essay, you have to kind of twist your examples and make a essay to fit in together with your example? That process of twisting involves the creative thinking process. Why is this process important? Because when i do this SAT essay alot, my mind will automatically shift my original creative writing to a essay for the SAT. I will start to have problem to figure out what is it that i want to write about and i have to pay double attention to be able to fend off the urge of fitting everything together.
The facts will become tied up along with my thoughts and the essay will become something what i like to call shit. It misses the originality of a writer or the SAT process shitty essay and in front of the writer is a byproduct forged by these two thinking process.
A combination ended up being something worst then either one of them. Nowadays, i find myself trying really hard to stop putting facts into my essay and think creatively. It takes me twice the time to think about an essay and jot down my ideas on paper. My mind maps are limited to my past where endless possibilities was available.
I hate this SAT and test taking works, im being cornered and my mind is being strongly affected.

Journal 36: Cheating

I value the progress more than the conclusion. Although  the conclusion is much more respected and valued for people, i feel that the progress is what provides people with experience. A person grows with the increased amount of experience tat they acquired through life.
I don;t like cheating, but in a society where conclusion is better than progress, people are forced to cheat in life. For the China situation, i think its a perception of life that they have because of a recent event. For example, the Cultural revolution forced them for their will to succeed. They had to do it or they will suffer in the later lives.
When forced, people had to do things against their will. About the Guanxi relationship, we Taiwanese people just know that everything in CHina is fake and we are tired to stop this mass producing of fake stuff. Its impossible for us to stop something liek this. We would habe to just let it go.

Journal 34: Race to College

That, is a rather hard question to tackle because of the extreme wealth difference between the people i the United States.
Here we have a group of maybe blacks that worked their butts of to college with not enough money while a group of rich white kids that have the same grades and the blacks. How do we pick which student we want then? the ones with the money. I think a system need to be created where if you work from a lower class to the same level of education and intelectual level as the people in a higher class do, you can come in with financial help or something.
People then will get pissed off and demand how the poor can have treatment like this while they're rich and they don't something to benefit them. I'm more than positive that some selfish people on the face of the planet will despise the poor and question the government for the same kind of treatment.
I think this is a matter of the thoughts and ideas of regular people. If you ask me, i believe this racial problem is something that takes time to cure, its not just about racial anymore, the racial problem is mixing in with strong poverty difference and the problem of child birth rates. the rich are giving birth to less children while the poor are having more children. the minds of people need to be changed until a actual revolution can happen.

Journal 33: My Activity

my activity is Tai Ji Men which I have being participating for the last 7 years. From when i was back in the U.S, i continued my apprenticeship for 3 years until i was officially accepted under my master. It might sound kind of gay with all these words im using now, but these are the actual words that i use if i was suppose to use english to address him and what i do. So yeah, im not playing around.
I pracetice martial arts and ways of helping the body with Tai Chi every Saturday and Sunday. It was a non stop activity from morning to night, and we would stay at the place ( i need to find a name for it) for the whole night to chat and communicate our inner feelings. Such as any insights, self meditation and all that. Its really relaxing to talk it all out and perform in front of people. It's kind of like public speaking, but we uses this method to speak out what's really on your mind and what your thoughts are on the world.
We promote world peace, every time there's a event around the towns we would gather up for a performance, its a prcatice (i still don't remember the specific name, gotta search it up) We perform drums, dancing tigers and dragons and lots of other activity.
Our organization also travel all around the world to promote world peace, to end all wars and help children by free charity work. Every october 10, the national taiwan holiday, we will have a own specific show. With hundreds of people that have been practicing for months for that show. We do it for fun, for showmanship, for displaying ourself and learning public appearance, and while during the whole process, self discovery.

Journal 31: How to Impress

to be honest, i could basically make up all sorts of specific events that teaches me all of the qualities that the officers are looking for. However, there is this one specific activity, Tai Ji Men that i do specifically fulfills each and every aspects of the quality that its looking for. Its like a humongous boy scout, well, at least it teaches all the morals of boy scout but when you look at all the things and the deeper meanings of things we do, its totally different.
We have to meditate, think about things that just really grand, we're always optimistic and stuff. We perform and call to world peace. We have interactions among the UN and the martial arts community. I had to practice almost all aspects of a good human behavior and a search of human insights.
its really nice to go, espacially how the atomsphere over there is really relaxing and everyone is so nice to me and positive.
Thi cho gong i learn over there helps my body as well, it promotes blood circulation, better health, cure many problems for people having back problem or health problems.
it encourage people to think and to act, it makes the people inside much more independent and all that.