Journal 19: The Hardest Part

This is a thinking journal for me, i might just throw whatever idea i have on this page.
christine
turtle monster
dennis - he opened my route to art. If it weren't for his fun and moody teaching i expierenced from 8th to 9th grade, i probably wouldn't be considering to become a artist. He gave me a clear goal on what i should do. Besides giveing me a clear goal, he had always been a good counselor for me in my social and personal life. His humor and craziness affected everyone beside him, that definitely included me.

Louis - orderly and cleansiness. My room, my life, and my world were all put in place and begin thinking about my future when he asked me the question of what are you going to do when you grow up.

Michael - childhood best friend, he was the one that taught me responsibilities, freindship, trust, introspection, posstiusty, team work, and leadership. Before i met him, i was the one escaping taking up work or hiding around other people. Staying in a year with him in school and the organization Tai Ji Men got me learning from him. What did he do? he was the leader in our class, he had to organize numerous events in different places and the one that was able to call everybody's attention.
His leadership was awe inspring to me, he shows concern and love for everybody. I changed from that into someone who talks to everyone, introduce myself in public to new students and eager to make every student or new comer at a place to feel like at home.
He was the one that taught me to look into myself, reflect on the things i done wrong. Know your mistakes, so that you won't be doing the same thing again. Patience from listening and thinking, or i would have been even worse than now
Zhu hsin hou - trust and forgiveness, much is needed for him, but he is a mystery to me for now, might take him off the list.

o shit, just now i realized the other guy is my dad, or more so his one sentence, what is the life you wanna give your wife and kids, one like what you're having now? or is it one of a normal family in a condo or maybe even a trashed place?
about it for now.